Lost.
Shattered, Dreams.
uncertainty, envious.
3am once again.
Feeling useless, im lousy. lousy at particular things.
I can help to counsel others, share their thoughts, suggest ways to help them, but i cant counsel myself.
I know how to communicate with others via virtual-world, but don't know how to communicate with others via real-world.
I can tell you why this is wrong, that is wrong, but i cannot tell you how wrong i am.
I can talk normally with friends, yet i cant do the same for special people.
People tried, and they gained something, I tried, yet i lost something.
Useless, damn useless.
Envious of people who can do things the way they want it to, while its the opposite for me.
Perhaps its a 1 sided affection,
Perhaps it may just be a wishful thinking,
Perhaps its just a dream.
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又会有谁能了解我心中的烦闷与失望呢?
失眠,once again.
Blank mind.
so near, yet so far.